the past and the present | gojo satoru x black! fem reader
ʚĭɞೃ author’s note: i’ve seen so many dad head-cannon posts so it gave me this fic idea, i might do a part two depending on how you guys like this.
ʚĭɞೃ description/warnings: 5,000+ words; black fem!reader, pet names (baby, used like once), smut with plot, toxic gojo?, creampie, slight degrading, unprotected sex, profanity, dad gojo, family outing, gojo’s a ceo, modern! au, angst, minors are not allowed!
“i saw y/n today," said megumi — one of satoru’s interns, as he sat down in the chair across gojo’s desk. “and she had a kid with her, a kid with the same exact hair color and eyes as you” he finished looking into gojo’s eyes. satoru’s body went still as he remembered the last interaction you guys had before you and he ended up not talking for five years.
“toru- please, it’s too much” you whined, gripping the sheets as his cock slipped in and out of you from the side.
“take it, baby, take it like the good slut i know you are,” he whispered in your ear with his massive hands wrapped around your throat. his words caused you to cry out even louder. with one of his hands wrapped around your neck, his other hand reached over to rub your swollen clit. “fu-uck”, you cried out meeting each of gojos thrust with your hips. “it’s so big”, you gasped.
satoru removed his fingers from your clit to move your braids away from your face. he turned your face towards him so he could see what faces his cock had you making. tears were falling down from your cheeks because how good he was fucking you. “don’t cry baby, this is what you wanted, you like getting fucked like a slut, huh?”
you nodded your head but satoru wasn’t satisfied. he tightened his grip around your neck which casued you to gasp. “answer me.”
“y-yes, i like it”, you whimpered.
“good fucking girl.”
satoru knew you were reaching your climax from the way your walls were clenching around his cock. “you feel so good, y/n” he moaned out as he began to slow his pace so he could last longer. “don’t ever let anyone besides me feel how fucking wet and good this shit is, okay,” he grunted out in your ear. “this”, he said, tracing the outline of your cunt, “will forever be for me," he whispered in your ear as he tightened the grip around your throat, causing your moans to escape rigidly.
“it’s yo-urs sato-ru; my pussy is all yo-urs,” you moaned, feeling yourself reach your climax. each time satoru entered your cunt, you got wetter and wetter,he was going to miss this, but satoru knew you were just too dangerous to be around. satoru's pace quickened, causing a loud whimper to escape your lips. he knew you were cumming by the way you were clenching around his cock. “i-i’m about to cum fuck”, mewled satoru. “c-cum inside me please; i wanna feel it inside me, please,” you cried out due to overstimulation.
when you look back, it probably wasn’t the smartest thing to do, but it felt right in the moment. the way his cum filled your cunt caused you to let out a weak moan. as satoru spilled his cum into you, he realized you softened him; you made him not afraid to love again, and he couldn't stand it. so he dealt with these unknown emotions the only way he knew how, and that was by pushing you away.
with his dick still semi-hard, he mustered up enough strength to deal you the final blow that would leave your heart shattered into a million pieces.
“you’re a nuisance, y/n; you’re so fucking needy, and i don’t mind because you take my cock the best,” he said coldly. “out of all the pussy i had, yours is the wettest and it makes me feel the best; that’s probably why i kept you around for so long,” he said, tracing kisses along the back of your neck.
at his harsh words, you shove his naked body away from you with tears streaming down your face. the sight of you crying because of something he said had gojo’s heart clenching, but it was for the best. "get out, get out of my fucking apartment now; you used me just like everyone else; I fucking opened up to you, and you throw me away like some kind of whore," you screamed at him, tears streaming down your cheeks. “get out, please,” you said, turning away from him because the thought of him seeing you cry for him made your stomach turn.
when you heard the front door of your apartment shut you cried harder than you ever had in your life. in your mind you knew satoru was going to pull away from you soon, but you didn’t know he was going to hurt you like this. you just wished you could hold on to his presence a little longer, the one that was kind, soft, and wasn’t scared to love.
“where did you see her?” satoru asked slowly.
“at target, the one closest to the zenin inc.’s main building”
“fuck”, satoru said rubbing his face. “let my assistant know i’ll be out for a while, okay”.
“what did you get yourself into, you hurt her and now you’re going to just waltz back into her life”, megumi scolded.
“we have a fucking kid from what i’m hearing. so, that all goes out the window, i know i hurt her, and i regret it every fucking day”.
megumi stood there shocked because this was one of the few times satoru wasn’t in a silly mood, he was serious. he’d known satoru for almost all his life, he practically raised him and he’d rarely see this side of him.
satoru dialed up the one person he knew for sure would be able to help him. “what do you want, satoru?”, nanami replied. satoru chuckled at nanami’s annoyance, “i need you to find an address for me”. “i’m not even going to question you, what’s the name?”
“y/n l/n, text it to me when you find it”, satoru responded before ending the call to avoid questioning.
the gojo family would not be happy about satoru having a kid out of wedlock and ruining the family business’s reputation , but he could care less. satoru had a kid, a kid who he’s missed about four years of their life. the fact that you were a different race from satoru would cause even more of an uproar with the gojo family. they were so stuck in their ignorant ways and wouldn’t be surprised if they told him he should’ve had a kid with someone his own race at least.
almost everyday satoru had thought back to the day he broke your heart, thinking about if he wasn’t so scared where would you two be right now. satoru finally had an excuse to talk to you and he would find a way to get you back. it might be selfish but he didn’t care, you were the one person that didn’t see him as a way to get quick fame. the time you spent together were time he was the happiest. he loved hearing you laugh, moan, and talk. you were the best thing that ever happened to him you treated him like a normal person instead of the god his family thought of him to be.
gojo’s phone dinged with a notification from nanami indicating that he did indeed find the address. he made his way to his all black porsche and followed the directions that his phone spoke to get him to y/n’s place.
love is a two-edged sword—it can either bring you happiness or bring you to your demise, and you learned that the hard way.
when satoru broke your heart, you spiraled down a dark path; you didn’t want to eat or get out of bed.
it was like that for a while before you realized you were pregnant with his child. when you found out, you cried and cried until tears couldn’t find their way out of your eyes anymore—you were tired. your best friend, iori grew sick and tired of watching you mope around and scheduled your appointment with a doctor. she made sure you ate and searched for a job for you so that you could support your unborn child. without her, you were ultimately positive that you wouldn’t be where you are now.
"you have to tell him y/n, and that says a lot coming from me," iori said softly, rubbing your back as you puked into the toilet.
“i know, i know, i’m going to text him now," you muttered.
to gojo: we have to talk, meet me at the coffee shop on 42nd street at 11am
gojo left you with no response, but you know he read it. “can you come with me, please, iori?" you whispered.
“ofc i can”
the next day, you did your morning routine and got dressed to meet with satoru. you were nervous, and you despised it; he shouldn't be able to instill these feelings in me after fucking your heart. once iori and you made it to the coffee shop, you spotted gojo sitting at a round table with his whore glasses on. “ugh”, you puffed out before making your way to take a seat at the table, satoru sat.
"I knew you were desperate, but this is insane." what did you call me here for? i’m not good for you. y/n stop texting me and forget calling me; forget i ever existed in your life," gojo spat at you. abruptly you stood from the chair you were sitting in and walked out the door and made your way to your car, forgetting iori accompanied you.
“what happened?" iori inquired as soon as you stepped into the car.
“he doesn’t want anything to do with the baby or me; he told me to forget he ever existed," you sobbed.
“that fucking asshole”, iori muttered.
"i'm sorry; you don't deserve that; you won't have to go through this alone," she said as she embraced you.
your daughter, gionna l/n was almost 5 now, and you adored every part of her. she made you happy, though she stressed you out sometimes.
“gigi baby, come so i can do your hair and you can go to school..”
“i'm coming, mommy," she responded, which made your heart swell.
“can i get two puff balls, please?" she begged with a puppy face, causing you to laugh.
"of course," you replied as she patted the pillow on the floor.
gionna made herself comfortable as you grabbed all the products and accessories you needed for her hair. you sprayed leave-in conditioner throughout her white-colored hair and began to detangle her hair section by section. you turned on spongebob to keep her occupied. “no bobos in your hair today?” you asked gionna.“no bobos, mommy," she said as she kept an eye on the 70-inch tv in the family room.
“close your eyes so i can show you the finished look cupcake”
like clockwork, gionna slapped her hands over her eyes. “okay you can look now," you said as you nudged her shoulders.
"yay so pretty, mommy, thank you," she gushed as she turned around to hug you.
“i love you gigi”, you whispered.
you heard a knock at your apartment door as those four words escaped her lips. you knew it wasn’t iori cause she worked in the morning on monday’s.
when you looked out the peephole, your whole body went still. “gigi can you go to your room for a second, please?"
“okay mommy," she said as she skipped to her room, leaving her toys scattered across the floor. once you opened the door, you were faced with the 6'4" bastard who broke you.
“what do you want, satoru?”, you spat. right now, you wish you wore something else to open the door besides your thin tank top and fluffy pajama shorts. you could feel your hard nipples showing through your shirt.
you noticed how satoru’s eyes were lingering on your chest, so you crossed your arms. “my eyes are up here, satoru, so hurry up and get out with it; i have somewhere to be."
“do we have a kid y/n and don’t lie to me”
“yeah, we do.”
“why didn’t you tell me?", he asked softly.
a loud laugh made it’s way past your lips when you heard those words. he couldn’t be serious, you thought. “why didn’t i tell you? are you serious? you told me to forget you ever existed, or did you forget?" y/n sneered as she glared at satoru. you saw him visibly cringe, and you didn’t care.
“what’s her name?" he replied.
“her name is gionna, gionna y/l/n."
“when can i meet her?" he begged. "i want to be in her life; i know you’ve already been through so much birthing her on your own, but i want to be here now, please," he begged.
“fine okay, here’s my number and we can talk about it some other time i have to take her to school and go to work”. you said handing him a sheet of paper with your number.
“and if you’re in her life don’t randomly one day decide she’s better off without you”, you said as you slammed the door. after you closed the door you let out the biggest breath. you couldn’t believe after five years he decided to get back in touch with you. how did he even find where you live? how did he even find out he had a daughter? you thought.
you might’ve lied to satoru about going to work today but that didn’t mean you weren’t busy. after you dropped gionna to school you were going to visit iori at work, she probably needed company in her office anyway.
“gigi baby you can come out now.”
“who was that mommy?” her blue eyes stared into your brown ones. you picked her up from the ground and sat her on your hip. “it was your daddy, and he wants to meet you soon, you excited?”, you questioned as you kissed her cheeks.
“yes! is he nice, mommy?”
"yes, he's a nice cupcake," you said as you wiped the side of her mouth with syrup from the pancakes she ate this morning.
“shit, you’re going to be late, gigi, let’s go," you said as you grabbed your mercedez keys from the counter.
“ou mommy said a bad word”, gigi said as she laughed.
after you dropped your daughter off at school, you made a quick stop at dunkin’ to grab iori and something to eat. when you finally made your way up to iori’s office, she was on the phone with a client. you sat down with her drink and bagel bites on her desk as she continued to discuss the matters of the house she was hoping to sell to her client.
you began to sip on your peach passion fruit refresher while scrolling through instagram. “hey, thanks for the food y/n”, iori said as she put her phone down. “no problem, i have something big to tell you.”
“what is it?" she asked, with her eyebrows raised. “satoru found out we have a kid, and he showed up at my apartment today before i was going to take gionna to school."
“no fucking way, it was probably one of his loud-mouthed interns who said something", iori said, as she sipped from her caramel macchiato.
“i don’t know who it was but it caught me so off guard, i hate the way he can still make me feel things after how badly he treated me.”
“it’s okay to feel that way, you guys were attached to the hip before what happened that night, don’t beat yourself up about it y/n.”
“i know, i know. i just thought i’d be over by now", you said, sighing.
“when is he going to meet her?”
“i’m free this friday, so i’m hoping we can do it that day and probably go to the aquarium or somewhere fun for kids.”
“that sounds great, i just hopes he’s healed and doesn’t pull no bullshit like he did with you.”
“i hope so too, let me call him right now while i have my emotional support with me.”
you take out your phone from your medium-sized black telfar bag and dial the number he gave you today. the phone rang four times before he picked it up.
“hi it’s y/n, i’m free friday for you to meet gionna are you available that day?”
"hi, and yes, I'll clear my calendar; what time?"
“friday, i was thinking three, we can go to the aquarium, gionna loves it there and she’ll feel more comfortable.”
“okay i’ll pick you guys up at 3.”
“wait i can drive there.”
“i know, but i want us to go together; plus, it’ll be easier if i’m driving, please," he said softly.
“um okay, i’ll see you friday call me if anything comes up.”
you wanted to punch him in the chest over and over for the way he treated 22-year-old you, but you pushed that urge aside. your daughter having a present father figure came first; you always wanted your children to have a present father figure because you never had that growing up. the fact that there was a slight chance that could become reality for gionna was enough for you to put your pride aside and try and make this co-parenting thing work.
before you knew it, it was friday and you were getting gionna and yourself ready to go to the aquarium. yesterday, you took the time to braid gionna’s white curly hair into plaits and added blue beads at the end of each braid to match her outfit for today. you picked out a two-piece outfit for her that consisted of a light blue sweatshirt with light blue plants. she insisted on wearing her light-up hello kitty shoes even though they didn’t go with her outfit.
it was chilly outside, so you settled on wearing something comfortable. you wore a striped brandy melville sweatshirt, a pair of abercrombie jeans, dark green high-top converse, and your dark green medium telfar bag. your kinky hair was in a high puff, making you appear a few years younger than you were. you decided on gold jewelry today since it made your skin pop more. as you were exiting your room, you quickly sprayed yourself with sol de janeiro 71.
“gigi come here and put this hat on; it’s chilly outside, cupcake," you said with her hello kitty hat in hand. you thought it would go with her shoes and give her outfit some cohesion. your phone rang in your pocket as you were putting gionna’s hat on her head.
“hello," you answered. “hey y/n i’m outside," he responded. "all right, I'll be right out; i need to get gionna's car seat."
“i can grab it for you; i’ll be outside," he said.
“uh no, it’s f—," but you realized he hung up before you had the chance to protest against it.
“okay gigi baby let’s go meet your daddy”
"yay," she said as she took your hand in hers to leave the apartment.
when you opened the door, you met with satoru’s blue eyes. he was dressed in dark blue jeans, a black shirt, and a varsity jacket. he smelled heavenly, and his white hair was down, making him look even better than usual. you crouched down to gionna’s level and told her that this was her dad and urged her to say hi. gionna shyly said hi, which caused you to laugh; she was always shy around new people, but you knew once she got to know people, the shy act disappeared, and she was the most talkative person you knew. satoru stared in awe at the interaction between you two. he couldn’t believe he had a daughter. she looked just like you, but with his eye color and hair color, her skin was a few shades lighter than yours, but the similarities were there. “hi gionna, im your d-dad”, satoru as he waved softly at her. the action caused you to smile because usually satoru is the most confident person ever.
“i’m going to open my car door so you can grab gigi’s seat. follow me."
you walked to the parking lot area in front of your apartment complex with gionna on your hip. you unlocked your black mercedez, and satoru opened the door to grab the car seat.
when gojo finally put gionna’s booster seat in the backseat of his black porsche taycan. you went to the backseat to strap gionna in then made your way to the passenger seat. your body felt hot being this close to satoru for the first time in years, but you tried your best to conceal it.
"gigi baby, you're on aux, what do you want to listen to?", you inquired as you plugged your phone into satoru's aux.
“um i want to listen to paramore!”, she said excitedly.
“great choice great choice”
the interaction between gionna and you made him laugh. he admired the way you and gionna interacted and hoped it wasn’t too late to build that kind of relationship with his daughter.
soon the song “aint it fun”, began blasting through the speakers of satoru’s car. “sorry”, you mouthed to satoru for the performance that was about to take place in his car. you began to sing the lyrics that led up to the chorus as gionna bobbed her head back and forth. when the chorus lyrics began, you used your hand as an imaginary mic and reached it over to the backseat so gionna could start singing. after you finished the last lyric of the gionna and you burst out laughing.
“okay, game time! we’re going to take turns asking your dad questions so we can get to know each other better," you said in an attempt to include satoru.
“okay, me first! what’s your favorite color, mr. white hair?" Gionna asked. you snickered because her hair was white too. satoru laughed to himself and then replied to gionna’s questions. “my favorite color is blue, and your hair is white too."
“i know, but my hair is prettier than yours.”
“that is also true.”
all of you continuously asked questions back and forth until you finally reached the aquarium. satoru parked the car and opened the door for you while he went to get gionna out of her car seat. the game in the car helped gionna relax, which is why satoru was able to grab her out of her car seat without her feeling uncomfortable.
as you walked behind satoru and gionna as they held hands towards the entrance of the aquarium, you heard him ask her, “what animal are you most excited to see?”
“i really want to see the jellyfish; they’re very pretty."
when you entered the aquarium, you noticed satoru had just shown the person at the front his phone and was let in. you caught up to him to ask about it, and he simply said, “i took care of it." after that, you didn’t ask any questions and simply enjoyed a free aquarium trip.
as satoru, gionna, and you continued to adventure throughout the aquarium, you realized that gionna was growing closer to satoru the more they interacted. she made sure to hold his hand when they went through the many exhibits the aquarium had on display. gionna even got satoru to sit in the "get wet" section of the orca show. you laughed as you exited the show, seeing gionna and satoru drenched. you took no chance sitting with them because you knew your hair, which you spent too much time perfecting, would be ruined by shrinkage.
when you felt gionna getting cranky due to her being hungry, so you decided to eat at one of the concession stands in the seaquarium. satoru insisted on paying for anything gionna, and you got. gionna sat between satoru and you, but she was too busy talking to satoru about the dolphins she saw to look your way. you knew that down the line gionna would become a daddy’s girl, and you weren’t ready. for so long, it had just been you two, and now you had to learn to share her.
“you okay.” you looked up from your nearly finished burger and fries to find gojo’s blue ones staring into your darker ones.
“yeah i’m fine, just letting you two have your moment.”
gojo looked back at his daughter stealing fries from his tray and laughed.
“mommy, can i go to the gift shop now, please?”
“as soon as you finish your food cupcake.”
after you daughter quickly finished her food, you took her to the bathroom . she dragged gojo and you to the aquarium gift shop.
“mr.white hair look look it’s a jellyfish.”
“yeah it’s a purple jellyfish, do you like it?” he asked, kneeling down to meet her at eye level.
“yes, my other stuffed animals want a new friend.”
“okay let’s get it then.”
gionna threw herself at gojo for a warm hug and your heart melted when satoru wrapped his arms around her.
“what do you say gigi?”
“thank you so much mr. white hair”, she said with a toothy grin on her face. gionna continued to lead satoru around the shop and whatever gionna wanted gojo added to the basket, you knew money wasn’t an issue with him so you let gionna enjoy the treatment she was receiving.
when the cashier rang up all the things gionna got from the gift shop you decided that it was time to go home. gionna was getting tired and you didn’t want to deal with how cranky she got when she got sleepy. you held the bag of everything from the gift shop while satoru carried a sleepy gionna that was slowly succumbing to her sleep on gojo’s shoulder. satoru decided to buckle her back into her seat while you hoped in the passenger seat which you were thankful for, today drained you and all you wanted to do was shower and be under your bed covers. once satoru got in the car you felt yourself falling asleep
“wake up y/n.”.
you felt someone gently shaking you which caused you to groggily rub your eyes. “wha-, shit where’s gionna?”, you asked as you frantically looked around the car.
“relax baby, she’s right here.” you watched your daughter's chest rise and fall slowly as she rested her head in the crook of satoru’s neck.
“i’m sorry for falling asleep.”
“no biggie, can you open the door, so i can get gigi inside.”
“yeah.”
as soon as you got inside and took off your shoes, while satoru placed gionna on your couch. he watched her intently as he moved one of her white braids out of her face. “when’s the next time i can spend time with her?”
“we were planning on going to the water park next weekend, she’d probably happy if you came”
“i'll be there, i’ll clear my schedule. and i’m sorry for what i put you through, an apology won’t fix what happened but i’ll be here to support you and gigi. now”
“yeah, you fucking hurt me satoru, i didn’t deserve that. i have to bathe gionna before she goes to sleep so i’ll see you this weekend.”
“let me do it, i used to take care of my intern when he was younger. plus, you’re tired, go take a shower and i’ll handle it, please.”
“satoru i don’t know.”
after his pleading, you decided to let him have it. before you left to take your shower you watched gojo for a few minutes then decided gionna was in good hands.
you rushed to the bathroom connected to your room to quickly take a shower. as you were wrapping your towel around your body you heard a knock at the bathroom door.
“shit, i’m naked.”
“u-uh where’s gigi’s sleep clothes?”
“it’s in the dresser, the last drawer. put lotion and rub cocoa butter on her skin please.”
“okay. does she have something for her hair like you did?”
you laughed remembering the first time you stayed over gojo’s place and he looked at you crazily for wearing a ‘hat’ to bed.
“yeah, it’s on her bed.”
you heard satoru’s steps fading down the hall so you decided to get out your bathroom and quickly lotion up. after you settled on wearing sweats and a tank top. you made your way to gionna’s bedroom to find her dozing off on her princess tiana themed sheets while satoru watched her quietly.
“you’re a natural.”
“i learned when i was raising my intern. she looks just like you with my eyes and hair color, she’s beautiful.”
satoru got up from gionna’s bed to turn to the door which you had been leaning against. he drank all of you in as his eyes roamed all over your body. your body has changed since the last time he seen you but he still loved every inch of you.
“stop satoru”
“what?” he walked towards you so now that he was only a few inches away from you.
“stop looking at me like that. you can’t just leave for that long after hurting me and think everything is okay between you and me . the only reason you're here is because of gionna. so stop looking at me like you actually love me.”
tears were fighting their way out of your eyes but you held them in. you refused to cry in front of him when you spent so long to heal from what happened to you.
“i’m sorry y/n, i was dumb and stupid, what i did was selfish and i didn’t mean what i said to you that night.”
you looked up into his eyes and could tell he was being sincere but you’re not sure you could ever trust him with your heart again, not after what he put you through.
“just go satoru, i’ll see you next weekend.”
“i’ll see you next weekend y/n.”
he leaned forward to place a kiss on your forehead then began walking towards your apartment door. you watched him make his way into his car before heading to your room to finally go to sleep. your thoughts swarmed with various throwbacks of the time when satoru and you were infatuated with each other and spent almost all of your free time together. you were scared the more he was around, the more those feelings would resurface and you would end up getting hurt again. you only hoped that you wouldn’t end up with your heart broken dealing with satoru again.